I truly admire the Autistic mind.
I find these kids (and adults) truly fascinating. I read so much. I study. I process the information I take in. And then I sit back and watch my girl sometimes. I love learning about how her brain processes and sometimes I find myself so lost in her world that my own world seems to make less and less sense.
Sometimes her view on things are so much more practical than mine and it often makes me wonder if we overthink things as neuro-typical humans. Wouldn’t the world be an incredible place if we all said exactly what we meant and viewed everyone as equals - if we didn’t get offended or embarrassed and just let it all out and wore our hearts on our sleeves.
Wouldn’t it be cool to see the world through such a detailed and sensory orientated mind. How much is there that I must overlook as I move through my daily routines. Even though that sensory is hard for her... when she IS regulated I wonder how amazing the world must really seem to her. I have to force myself to stop and breathe in to “smell the roses” but she smells them coming from a block away.
How amazing would it be to memorize everything I’ve learned or specific phrases a person has said to me and be able to recall that memory at will. I wonder if she will lose this trait as she gets older like we do as seniors with old age.
How cool would it be... to look to the OTHER people around us in order to learn things. To spend so much time studying people’s expressions instead of their body types and outfits. To be able to watch their body language and then to try our best to mirror what they do to see how it feels on our own selves. When I’m sitting in a group of adults chatting you will find my child watching my face intently sometimes. I would love to be able to get inside her mind and to know what she is thinking.
I really look forward to the day she cohesively is able to put her thoughts into words and let us in so that she may be able to walk us all through a day in her life. I encourage her to write and read... (she loves both) so that one day this may be possible.
I love finding her patterns in her thinking as it helps me teach her. I try to focus more on helping her find comfort in her own body as opposed to being comfortable in my world. I want her to be successful but successful in the ways that she needs to feel happy with her life amidst our world.
I love when I notice similarities between her and my own self. It teaches me so much about myself. It helps me know what I need to work on for self growth. It helps me focus and be the best person I can be.
I love Autism.
Even with all it’s hard days and struggles. I really love her and everything that is her. ❤️
